Getting back to work after a break

Hello all…It’s been a while. A lot has happened and I’m still struggling to find my bearings in Bangalore. Good news (or bad I’m not sure at this point) I’ve started working again. This time it’s a writing job! ( I know!!considering I like to write, this does sound like an interesting turn of events).

I’ve joined a content management company and my work involves reading text books on a varied range of subjects from psychology to religion to management. Language training sessions are great and begin to throw light on punctuations – some choose not to show up on certain occasions and while others show up where they are not invited  and subject-verbs can sometimes ‘disagree’. It’s a process I hear and I’m getting there…

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If any of you are wondering how it feels getting back into the work force after a break. The experience has had its ups and downs…Well, let me explain, I’ve been –

The Samurai and the Emotional wreck: I can tell you now that the experience wasn’t easy and wasn’t very difficult either. That said, I cried like a baby on my  first day. Saying bye to my darling princess was not easy in the least. Even while I sat in the training room where we were filling out forms and finishing up the joining formalities I kept thinking about lil Ems back home.Thank God she was in safe hands and her safety and well-being were not a problem. I always thought I was a very practical sort of person who would do what needed to be done without feeling any emotion like a Japanese Samurai – Nishi the Bushi (Bushi means Japanese Samurai and yes, I realise that sounds very odd with my name and the rhyme just makes it worse) but let me tell you I was Nishi the Mushy on my first day at work. One of my colleagues said she thought I had my b**** face on that day and that I looked kind of intimidating but the truth was, I was feeling bad having left little Ems behind. Don’t worry it’s been a month now and we’ve both adjusted to the new schedule.

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The Debutante and the Elderly matron: Yea so I don’t know if you guys remember I celebrated my 30th birthday here on my blog two years back and it was a nice day. I dreaded the three zero but as it turns out nothing actually changed and things only got better- emotionally I felt mature and in control, I grew more accepting of myself and the way I looked, I felt healthier and more energetic that I did in my twenties…so life was in fact getting better. But here I was at the workplace starting at the bottom with a bunch of twenty somethings. So when I finally got to talk to the cute guy in office and he asked me in a voice interspersed with equal doses of curiosity and innocence how old I was…In my mind I was like..

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…in the end however, I remember squirming and with every ounce of my being trying hard to be honest and finally I voiced my truth- I’m thirty one. Hell, when my nephew asked me how old I was when I blew the candles on my cake this birthday I acted all “caszh’ and told him that I was  ‘forever twenty one’ (the name of the store I bought the dress I was wearing or my age he can go figure) but seriously folks – if I have to be very honest age don’t matter.

The Zen master and the Drama queen: There have been several occasions in my one month of working that I’ve vacillated from being completely in control of my emotions and feelings to when I’ve totally blown my fuse. When my friend at office, lets call her Sally, called me a drama queen after witnessing my numerous meltdowns at the bank while setting up my account and at the office, it made me think and reflect…Maybe I was overreacting, maybe it’s not right to expect people to behave in a certain way when perhaps they were never taught those values in the first place. Lack of professionalism, self-centredness and a blatant disregard for others have become a trademark of majority of the youth in India today. I know I sound very preachy and judgemental at this point but I sincerely yearn for those old school values of chivalry and sincerity…Yes, Mister please explain to these kind folks what I mean…

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When you start something new and after you’ve taken a break, you tend to compare things to how it used to be and how it was. I consider myself fortunate however to have had the opportunity to experience these things and though it does get a little emotionally draining at times there is always an adjustment phase when you are trying to learn and adapt to the new surroundings and new ways of life. How have you all been?

 

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Monday Rambles -Fantasy Size Triple Zero and Digital brains

Hey everyone! How are you all doing? Friday evening flowed into Sunday and then the start of another week and here we are on the first Monday of August..

Woke up and headed straight to the weighing machine (Its a  Monday morning ritual..wake up- go the bathroom- weigh myself) and I felt sad to see that Sunday brunch with friends at the Indian restaurant downtown had not been very forgiving…that and the carbolicious dinner at home late at night while watching Fargo on Netflix with the husband (such brilliant writing and  wonderful performance by actress Frances McDormand.)

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Oh well, a brand new week, a brand new struggle…As they say weight loss is a ‘journey’ not an overnight miracle..One of my favorite fantasies is waking up one day in the morning looking like a Victoria’s Secret model..bit much? Fairy Godmothers are only in fairy tales after-all..Zero_Skateboards_Skull_Logo.jpg (413×496)

Don’t get me wrong here. I’m not trying to promote the Size zero and whats this I hear? the latest trend-  Triple Zero where women are trying to fit into clothes with 23 inch waists and what 6 or 8 year olds would wear? Hello Ms. Frankel!

I have clothes ranging from a size 10 to size 16 in my closet right now. Over the course of
time, I have accepted myself the way I am, through diet and excercise I am currently at a place where I am happy with myself.

I must say, growing up it was quite a struggle. A poor body image can wreck your self esteem and your sense of self respect and when that happens its the worst feeling in the world. You become your own worst enemy and people pick up on those vibes and you discover nothing seems to work in your favor. You can turn things around ladies and gentlemen.. 🙂

The key lies in self acceptance – before anyone else, You need to accept You..body, mind and soul. As long as YOU are  happy and healthy everything else will be fine..Do whatever it takes to get to that point. And by whatever I mean eating healthy 80 percent of the time and leading as active a lifestyle as your situation permits.. Let your light shine through..

We’ve been talking about the body now moving on..reading is one great way to nourish the mind. This weekend, much to my disappointment I had to return a couple of  books I had borrowed from the library without as much as flipping the pages of some.

I don’t know if this happens to anybody who is reading this, but I’ve noticed sometimes when I read a book my eyes scan the words and my brain is not necessarily taking in the meaning and by the time a paragraph is done I have to go back and read the whole page once more. Well, I googled it (side effects of the times. You’ve got to google everything!).digital-brain.gif (605×375)

Guess what! apparently humans are developing ‘digital brains‘.Yes, you read right. According to cognitive neuro scientists our brain circuits that have developed over millenia which helped us to focus on deep reading is now being replaced with new circuits that don’t focus as much from continuously skimming through torrents of information online..

 

Well hopefully its not permanent and can be reversed. As wonderful as it is to have information at your fingertips, the beauty and joy of reading can and should never be replaced..On that note wishing you all a great week ahead!

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Birthdays – noone youer than you.

Mondays I guess I should dedicate to my rambles…Its the start of the new week you are just recovering from the hangover of a weekend so swiftly gone by and recouping for the challenges of the new week. So no taxing the brain just some regular chit -chat..

Last weekend was special since Friday was my Birthday

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I had intended for a birthday post however, I got very busy and that did not happen..As they say its never too late to write a birthday post. Noones said that before?!!

Sure birthdays are all about getting a year older and if you want to be a grumpy grinch about it..sure you can but I dont intend to be one..Birthdays are joyous occassions Its the day to celebrate ..In the words of a woman I admire, Oprah Winfrey, “The more you praise and celebrate in your life the more you have to celebrate.”..So true isnt it?

The day was made specially special by all my dear friends and family and their wishes..its the thought that counts. I dont need the flowers or the gifts the point is you remembered( with the help of Facebook or not) and picked up the phone to call or your laptop to type out that message and that is the most special thing and the best birthday gift you could give me…See how low maintenance I am.

From my husband on the other hand I expect flowers, chocolates the whole shebang (not so low maintenance now am I?) and does he deliver on all the above ..Nope! and he rarely disappoints.

Which makes me ask these very important questions to all my dear lady friends who may be reading this…

Why are some men like this?..

Would’nt it be nice to wake up to flowers and birthday cake on our birthday ladies? or is it just me?

Okay so thought maybe I shouldnt just let this go this time as the key to any good relationship is communication..

I asked him and he said…he said…wait for it………….”I thought you were on a diet.”

Well…who diets on their BIRTHDAY!!

Jokes apart he did take me out for dinner.We went out to The Cheesecake Factory and I pigged out on a huge plate of Shepherd’s pie..Yes thats huge..and I couldnt finish it..Guess Im not that big a pig afterall.. 🙂

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This birthday was even more special to me since I was starting a brand new decade of my life..Yes..I turned twenty !

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I was just kidding..Whhaaat you already knew I was lying! Gawwsh..you guys! To make myself feel a lil special I went out and got a haircut ..It was long overdue as you would notice from the photo below.. here are the hair headshots before and after..nothing drastic just a couple of layers…

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So all in all it was a quite birthday but a special one and I wished myself borrowing  words from the great Dr. Seuss

Today you are you!

Thats truer than true

Theres no one alive

who is youer than you!

 

The Very Inspiring Blogger Award

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Its been a couple of months since Ive started to blog and so far Ive had fun – coming up with ideas, drafting the posts editing them and finally publishing them..I am  extremely happy to have found new friends here and I must say it came as a very pleasant surprise when Ronovan from Ronovanwrites first gave me the heads up regarding the fact that he had nominated me for the mentioned award. Thank you Ronovan for nominating me for The Very Inspiring Blogger Award. Ronovan writes from the heart and is an encourager. Do check him out :)Though this post comes a week late Ron, I would like you to know I appreciate the thought and graciously accept the nomination.Thank you once again.

Here are the things to know about the Award:

1. Thank and link the amazing person(s) who nominated you.

2. List the rules and display the award.
3. Share seven facts about yourself.
4. Nominate 15 other amazing blogs and comment on their posts to let them know they have been nominated.

5. Optional: Proudly display the award logo on your blog and follow the blogger who nominated you.

Oh okay now comes the difficult part and perhaps the reason why this post was so late in coming

Seven things about myself

1. Sticking with Ronovans first point about himself I am a Cancerian – Imaginative,Intuitive, tenacious, loyal and emotional…and I would like to believe that all of this helps me in my writing.                                                                                                                    cancer+crab+ed+text+bg+small.jpg (844×793)

2. I have a B.A in English and an MBA. Ive always loved the English language and as a kid used to constantly be correcting   grammatical errors that people made as they spoke in my mind during a conversation but as time passed have tended to make a couple myself while writing.

3. Like many Im an ambivert. Interacting with friends and family and meeting new people and getogethers gives me a lot of joy and I also enjoy my ‘me time’

4.While in school I loved reading books on myths and legends of Greece and of King Arthur and his Knights of the round table and all the wonderful and glorious tales from India’s Ramayana and the Mahabharat.I could go without TV for days if I had an Enid Blyton and would travel back in time to Victorian England with Jane Austen and Charlotte Bronte. Ive read all of Dickens specially loved his Pickwick Papers.

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5.I love flowers – roses in particular..

6.I am a wife and a mother to a two and half year old baby girl who in my opinion is growing up very fast and this worries me because that would mean that I am growing old too.On the other hand, Im growing to love the wisdom that comes with age.

7.I love Middle Eastern and Italian Cuisine.I was born in the Middle East and hope that someday will be able to make it to Italy and specially Rome.

Here are my nominees for The Very Inspiring Blogger Award

1. Lulus poetry

2. Story Smitten

3. Beebeesworld

4.The Perfect Scorpio

5. Ram and Raisin

6 Deidra Alexandras Blog

7.insidethelifeofmoi

8.Khawaja Hamad

9. A Woman saved

10.Nubian waters

11. WhatIHeart2day

12. Darkofficehumour

13. Cassandra Rose Arthur

14. The Public blogger

15. Mommy cook for me